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i fucking sucks when u know that a girl u dated is with someone else, paige got angry and we argued on the phone and she said some shit. heres the story, she has been leading me on by being super nice to me over text, complementing me everyonce in a while and  she keeps saying i like you. i thought she still liked me, but when we were argueing she said well i like this other guy and not you. that hurt like shit cause we dated before and i  still like her a good amount. shes talking to someone else as she talks to me all flirty, well fuck off paige im done with you, Im staying single fucking forever, unless……..

Well ATM I’m in a motel in Flagstaff, AZ haha, I have t posted in a while cause I’ve been busy. My dad went to jail, he tried to kill my mom and three other men cause he thought she was having an affair, he had no proof but went with his gut feeling, he hired a hitman to kill them but the hitman ended up being an undercover cop. My dad was arrested and put in jail. I don’t feel bad for my dad cause if you read my other posts you would know that I hate my father. But don’t get me wrong I feel bad for him as a human being but not as my dad. I hope he rots in jail. He ruined my school life, everyone looks at my family like we are crazy like him. I had to leave school, I had to leave the girl that I wanted to date since elementary school all because of my dad. Paige. I miss her still people just say I miss the sex and the misses but that’s a lie, I miss her, I miss the feelings I had Everytime I hugged her, I miss being lost in her eyes, I miss her so damn much. My dad ruined the two best relationships I’ve every had. I’m in Phoenix Arizona ATM, my aunt and uncle are here and it’s been fun so far. I’m close to cali so I get to chill with rod now. So yea my life isn’t terrible, it just has many problems. People say life is a movie, well I sure as hell want to see what happens next.

i miss her alot

I just made the biggest mistake of my life.Im so scared, i feel like im a bout to just drop on my knees and cry. i need advice so badly but i cant trust no one with this secret.FUCK!! why am i so dumb. Time Machine would be nice, i would go back to August where the sun shined bright in San Diego…..

They made me OSU leader lets try to get this team back up to the top. Guess advice is too much to ask for

Damn its been a rough week Mary is bugging me and asking for me back, she got down on her knees and started crying in school saying i want u back :/ i felt like shit  for saying no so many times. The truth is she did do alot of things wrong but i like someone else alot more, ive crushed on this girl for so long, like 3 years, shes been going to school with me since elementary but ive never had the guts to talk to her, and senior year comes and im talking to her, god im so happy but i feel so selfish for just dumping mary for another girl but me and mary were not a long time thing. i feel like shit and no one is giving me advice i tried talking to ex for advice but i guess shes not ready to talk but whatever. I want to date this girl so badly, i would give anything to be next to her now :/